Eight of Swords

When my first enlistment was up I was deciding whether or not I wanted to reenlist in the Marine Corp, or come home or go somewhere else. I knew that wherever

I went I'd still be the same person. I don't get to be a whole new person just because I'm in a new place. I am what I know. If I want to change, I have to learn new things. I was thinking over some of the complexities of my relationship to the place I am from, and my life at home. I reached into my tarot deck and drew this card. A castle is visible in the woman's background. Is it where she is from? Is it where she is trying to get too? Is it both or neither of these things? The swords appear to be her jail, but also her means of escape. Perhaps they are like people; they're both a benefit and a hazard. They can cut us, and we don't want many more cuts than we already have. If she weren't blindfolded she could see to cut her cords with them, without cutting herself instead.

What do you think? What was the card telling me?